I hope you know...

I was sad to see my parents go, but happy to have Stephen all to myself again. But, he's no longer all mine. School has started and I have to share him with his teachers and books and classmates... And even though this isn't the first time I've sent him off to school, it doesn't make it any easier.

Medical school is robbing me of my husband. It's hard not to get jealous and envious, not to get mad at Stephen for being gone all day and being busy all night when he gets home... It's just hard. But it's not just hard for me. It's hard for Stephen, too. And I think sometimes I lose sight of that. That really, it's harder for him than it ever will be for me. Add books and studying and actually attending medical school and learning something into the mix... 

I know he feels guilty leaving me every morning, and for leaving the dishes in the sink for me to clean, and for leaving me in the living room with a trash tv show to entertain me while he ventures into his study room... And I know he's worried about making time for the baby when it's born... I know how good of husband and dad he wants to be... No, how good of husband and dad he already is. I hope you know that, Stephen. I hope you know that you couldn't be doing a better job if you tried. That even though I get a little lonely, I know I am loved, and loved deeply, by the most incredible man. I hope you know that I don't regret signing on to this adventure. That I'm excited for this year and all that it holds. That one day we'll look back at these endless days and laugh. I hope you know how proud I am of you. So proud... For excelling in your first year of medical school and making it with a huge, loving, and eager heart to your second year. For being brave enough to start this adventure in the first place! For having the dedication, determination, guts, attitude, smarts, talent, willpower, perseverance, confidence... For having all the qualities to get you through school, and all the qualities I love about you. I hope you know that. That I love you. 

This crazy busy schedule of ours is going to take some time to get used to. But we will. Medical school aint got nothin' on us, right?! ;) Though I'm certain it will try its hardest to pull us apart and make us fight, I have you, and you have me. Always. And I don't need anything else. 

Forever and a day, with all my heart...